Chapter 383
That was right. We were lucky there was a blackout.
Fortunately, Colin was back in time. Everything remained the same.
That blackout was a nightmare for me but salvation for him.
All of the remorse and debt I felt toward Felix vanished because of the crazy things he did to me last night. Instead, I held deep disgust and resentment toward him.
He almost destroyed me. How could I not hate him? How could he be so shameless and nasty?
Since that day, I had never been to his rental house. Colin also returned to his college dormitory. He hired an aide for Felix and only visited him occasionally.
I wondered how he dealt with Felix. However, I didn’t ask and didn’t want to know about it.
Whenever I thought about Felix, that night’s scene would reappear in my mind, making met feel like I was in hell again.
The young man who made an impression on my 18–year life had become my nightmare on many nights.
That handsome and brilliant man had vanished. The past Felix never returned.
I was frightened by that incident. I was even more afraid of the dark and couldn’t sleep well. As soon as I closed my eyes, I could only think of Felix’s devilish breathing and words, including the cold feeling when he touched me. After waking up in fright, I kept my eyes open till morning.
Colin soon realized something was wrong with me. He asked a doctor to prescribe anti–shock / medicine for me, but it had no effect
Thus, he took me to see a psychologist. The psychologist said it was due to excessive fright. To lessen my symptoms, I’d better have someone I trust to accompany me to boost my
confidence.
To care for me, Colin rented a two–bedroom house in a community next to the college and lived with me.
He no longer worked overtime. Even if he had an urgent task, he would return before 8:00 pm. He’d accompany me to paint, then to sleep–it was really sleeping. We only lay in bed together and did nothing else.
I gradually stopped thinking about Felix and that dreadful night. My emotions became less tight. I smiled more and was happier.
Life seemed to get back on track. I had a newfound zeal for life.
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Several times, I awoke at night to find Colin’s body hot and tense. As soon as I moved, he backed away and gulped. His eyes were dazzling as he stared at me.
He yearned for me, but he knew I was frightened by Felix. So, he’d rather endure his desire. He’d take a cold shower instead of touching me if he couldn’t bear it.
To avoid scaring me, he even softened his kisses. He only kissed my forehead and the corner
of my eyes.
Eventually, I couldn’t stand this situation any longer, so I leaned forward gently and placed his hand on my waist.
He kissed my lips enthusiastically, and his large hands lingered from my back to my chest. He moaned with satisfaction and was going to turn over and hold me down.
However, that night’s scene suddenly emerged from the depths of my memory. I began to tremble uncontrollably, and tears flowed out.
Colin keenly noticed my fear. He abruptly halted his movements and turned the intense kiss into a tender one. After he calmed down, he hugged me and said softly, “Let’s sleep. I won’t touch you. Don’t be afraid.”