Chapter 376
“I know you hate me. Since it’s my fault, blame me alone. You can ask for anything. I’ll do anything to satisfy you. Don’t involve Lulu. Felix, please let her go. Please.”
“Lulu is mine! I’ll never let her go in this life. Just give up!”
Colin swayed slightly, gripping his head. He let out a painful and desperate cry.
I could imagine his breakdown.
They had had this conversation countless times during this period. I’d encountered it three times. It always ended up this way.
Felix always hurt others with a single blow and spared no effort. After all, he did the same to me on Thanksgiving that year.
Colin had always been a decisive person. However, when it came to Felix and me, he was in a dilemma.
He was responsible, and he valued the two of us. He felt hurt when he had to make a decision.
As he said, he was the cause of the car accident. He felt indebted because his brother had become disabled. Yet his feelings for me were so deep that he was reluctant to let me go, let alone give up.
Both of us were important to him. It would be cruel to force him to choose.
I was fully aware of this. Regardless of how awful I felt, I had never considered asking Colin to stand up for me. On the contrary, whenever he wanted to do something, I would do my utmost to stop him.
During my worst, I considered leaving couldn’t overcome this obstacle. This ending would be harrowing, but I was willing to do it because I loved Colin. He had done so much for me. I didn’t want him to be unhappy or turn him against his family.
I’d never told him my thoughts. I dared not say it. I worried that if he realized what I was thinking, he’d do something regrettable.
I tirelessly comforted him while doing everything I could to look after Felix. I held in my anguish and suffering and persisted.
No matter how painful or exhausting it was, the thoughts of doing everything for Colin stopped me from sinking.
I returned to Southsville once. Seeing that I was so underweight since I had lost my spirits, Dad was so distressed. He burst into tears several times and even declared that meeting the
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Mom didn’t cry in front of me. Instead, she secretly cried to Dad when I fell asleep.
I hadn’t been sleeping well lately. Once I awoke at midnight, I had trouble falling asleep. Therefore, I overheard my parents‘ garbled whispers and choked sobs.
They were heartbroken, but they couldn’t help me.
Dad suggested taking me away from Southsville. They could resign, sell the house, and relocate to a new city to start again. He couldn’t bear to watch me suffer. Mom objected, claiming it would be too irresponsible. She couldn’t bear it in her conscience. If it weren’t for Felix, they would have lost me a long time ago.
There was a long silence in the room.
A life–saving grace had turned into a relentless curse. However, it was my fate.
Mom was right. If Felix hadn’t saved me, I might have died that morning. He became blind and lame, but I still lived well. I should do more for him.
I could do anything for him. I could give him my eyes, legs, and life.
The only thing I couldn’t give him was love.