Why didn’t you let Martha know?
She shrugs her shoulders. I’m sorry,
She gives me her puppy eyes and I cave in like the fucking weakling I am. I can never say no to her. Nor can I ever stay mad at her.
I sigh, before bending down to kiss her cheeks, This is a new pack, so don’t go running around alone, okay? Now go find Martha, she must be looking for you.
Okay mommy, she then turns to Alec. Bye Mr.
She sprints past me and goes inside the house. When she disappeared, I turn to Alec. Stay the fuck away from my daughter, Alec.
His eyes harden as he gets up. She’s my daughter too.
As much as I try to push it down, I feel my anger rising. Pushing forward to the surface.
How dare you! I all but scream. Daughter? You wanted to end her life! You called me a fucking whore!
I can’t stop the pain that washes over me when I remember that day and the words he carelessly flung at me. It hurts. It fucking hurts. My heart is aching, and I don’t know how to stop it.
Do you remember what you said to me? Because I do. It’s still clear in my mind, as if you said them yesterday. Tears are pouring down my face and I hate that he is witnessing me crying. If the bastard child is mine, which I doubt, I would never allow it to live. I fucking hate you, Sadie, and I’d rather that pup die than be given birth to by the woman who destroyed my life… That’s what you said to me.
My knees weaken and I wrap my hands around myself, just to comfort and give myself strength.
His eyes flash. Pain is etched in them, and he seems to drown in them. I don’t care though. He said things he can’t take back. He wanted to kill my baby. How can I even think of getting over that? Sadie… his voice is nothing but a hoarse whisper, full of emotions.
No! I wipe my tears aggressively, pretty pissed off with myself for allowing him to see this weak side of me. By denouncing her, you severed any ties and bonds you had with her. You lost the right to be her father because of the intent you had to kill her and the degrading name you called her. I’m sorry, he whispers brokenly, but it does nothing to ease the pain that still haunts me.
Sorry doesn’t fix shit, Alec. It’s only applicable when you accidentally spilled milk, or broke a glass, but not when you destroyed someone’s life. You did what you did, fully conscious of your actions and being sound of mind. There are no take backs. You can’t go back and change things.
I would if I fucking could! he grits out through a clenched jaw, but his words don’t move me.
I never thought that I would end up like this. Hating the same man that I was sure I would love forever. I used to see him and see nothing but our beautiful future together. Now I see him, and I’m reminded of nothing but the pain he put me through.
I said everything I needed to say. I didn’t have anything else. I turn to leave, but he grabs my hand.
Immediately, the bond comes to life. Tingles race up and down my arm, and it feels like I’ve been electrocuted. I gasp, because this is new. It has never happened before.
Sadie, please. He pleads. His eyes move in wonder from where our skin is connected to my eyes.
I didn’t want to feel the spark, so I rip my hand from his and leave, not once, looking back at him.
Rubbing my arm where he touched me, I try to erase the lingering feel of the sparks. The bond seemed to get stronger and I hated it. Now more than ever, we need to find a way to break this damn curse. I needed to leave, before the bond consumed us both.